Okay, so I have been thinking about this topic for close to 3 months now ( I think)!
What really is my worship? What do I mean when I say I am a worshipper?
What makes me a worshipper of Jesus Christ/ God Almighty?
Why do I love the Lord and want to sing His praises daily?
I really want to be real with myself. If there’s anything I hate the most, it’s self-deception.
Growing up, I gave my life to Christ at about age 10, got baptized in water and in the Holy Ghost at age 11.
But when I got to the age of 14, I got introduced to the experience of hearing the voice of God through the Holy Spirit through some of my friends in secondary school.
I was really interested in this possibility of hearing God’s voice. So when I got home and tried to practice what I had just been told, I went on my knees and said,”Lord, I was told that You speak to us and we can be able to hear your voice. I would love to hear Your voice, please, speak to me, but I won’t pretend to have heard Your voice if I don’t hear it, I want You to be real with me”. And He did speak to me and started me on a new journey in my love for the Lord.
So many years have passed since that first experience and I’ve loved hearing His voice guiding me in every area of my life and O what joy it brings to me.
But today I ask myself this question: What is my worship? What makes my life and my singing different from any other person? Why am I a Christian?
I got the answer from listening to Darlene Zschech. The heart is what makes the difference between singing and worshipping.
As my mentor – Rev. Sam Adeyemi- says, the heart of the matter is a matter of the heart.
My worship is me living every single day of my life giving my heart to Jesus.
If all my living and acts and actions are separated from my heart, then I am not worshipping.
Giving my heart is an act of trust- just like falling in love, giving your heart to the one you love and trusting that someone loves you back. That’s why it hurts so much when people get heartbroken.
The beautiful thing is we can count on God not to break our hearts, He’s the mender of broken hearts.
My worship is not me doing all the things I know to do just because it is expected of me by people, its simply because I have given my heart, committed it to loving Jesus. That drives my waking moment.
My worship is not me going to church because I have to, but because I really want to be there and enjoy God in the presence of people who love Him.
My worship is not me serving God just because of the material blessings I can get. If there’s one thing I want more than anything else, it’s to have His continued guidance for my present and future.
Jesus knows the way – actually, He is the Way! I don’t want to miss it and waste my time and life going in circles. Since Jesus is the way, I give Him my heart, show me where this future should go.
My worship is me allowing God to take this broken vessel and mould it into what He wants it to be in order to be a blessing to the lives around me.
Some of us are afraid of committing our hearts even to relationships because we don’t want to appear vulnerable.
I would love to encourage us that you can only be as real as you can get when you give your heart away, moreso when it’s giving it over to Jesus. You can never go wrong loving genuinely.
My worship is me allowing the love of God to flow from me to others around me – family, friends and everyone I come across – in such a way that brings brightness to their lives.
My worship is me loving people and using things and not loving things and using people.
My worship is me giving honour to my parents and those God has placed above me and showing the younger ones how to do the same.
My worship is me helping the needy and putting a smile on their faces. That’s what Jesus would do.
Doing all these from the bottom of my heart- with sincerity, to the glory of God is what true worship is….
So to sum it up, true worship, the one I give to Jesus, is me engaging my heart to loving and living for Him everyday and in everyway. I hope this blesses someone today.
Lots of love,
Vorkay.